Fear over Excitement

Before going to bed last night, Che and I were chatting during our cuddling and 'harutan' session. It started with some cheesy questions like 'Why did you fall in love with me?'. This is one of the questions that we normally ask each other because we basically do not have a consistent or straight answer. We usually answer back with a joke instead like 'Di naman talaga eh, pinikot mo lang ako' or 'Mahilig talaga ako sa mga maasim na pagkain'. That's how often we use humor in our relationship.

One thing that led to a serious talk was when Che asked me, 'Are you excited?' (referring to the birth of our twins). I immediately answered back ,'I am actually scared'. There's a fear that I won't be able to take care of the twins. Could I manage breastfeeding two babies? Who will take care of them when I return to work?

I asked him back 'And you?'. He replied saying the same thing. But Che's fear was more on not being able to sell (he is in car sales) and unable to provide to the needs of the twins/our family. He said this is the reason why he is working his ass off. He even work during weekends and holidays. I asked him to take it easy as we are fortunate to both have work that compensate well enough for our needs and wants. But he's never like that. He would never depend on anyone, even on me. Ever since, Che has always been a VERY responsible person. He is a good provider and never misses out on his obligation. He made quite a lot of sacrifces and you won't hear him complain. He return his blessings thru helping out other people that he never dare brag about. And that, I could honestly say, was one of the reasons why I do fell in love with him.

As parents, will this fear fade away? Maybe not. But I do hope that this fear will be one of the greatest motivator for us to be good parents.

Dealing with Remarks from Friends and Aquaintances

Here are some more remarks that I get during pregnancy and how I normally react. Let me correct that, I normally react by just smiling or saying 'oo nga'. Below are my silent reactions. :)

'In fairness, hindi ka mukhang buntis pag nakatalikod.'

Buti na lang. In fairness, may korte pa rin ako pag nakatalikod. Wag mo lang ako tignan sa harap! hahaha.

'Ma'am, ang laki ng tyan nyo!'

Natural kambal itong dinadala ko! (di naman ako galit, defensive lang)

'Grabe, bilog na bilog tyan mo'

Oo, parang bola ng basketball! (I actually like showing people that I looked like I swallowed a watermelon or a basketball) hehe.

'Ang tulis ng tyan mo'

Akala ko ba bilog? Nalilito na ako ha.

'Ang baba na ng tyan mo oh. Malapit na yan.' (sabay hawak sa tyan take note sa ibaba ng boobs)

Oh no touch, baka iba na mahawakan mo nyan. :) Ay, sabi na nga ba eh!

'Buti di ka tumaba'

Buti naman talaga at ang dami kong tiniis na hindi kainin. Pero pag nanganak ako, sa hospital pa lang, kakainin ko ung mga namiss ko!

'Uy, ung pusod mo nakaumbok na' or 'Wala ka na tlgang pusod'

Oo, nastretch sya ng sobra! At please, wag mo na tignan! Ang swangit!

'Pakita ng tyan mo'

Wag na! Baka matakot ka rin. :)

Will I miss those remarks when I give birth? Nah, maybe not! Ang gusto ko marinig na remark eh: 'Uy, sexy mom!'. Wahahaha. Sana nga!

Changing the Skin

I find my blog's skin already boring. I want to add a personal touch to it. But I don't know how...

Pictures! Pictures!

Finally, I can post some pregnancy pictures. Here it is for today...

I had our check-up today. I was stunned when I saw that I lost 4lbs from my last visit 2 weeks ago. I was scared actually. How could it be? I am eating rice every breakfast, lunch and dinner. Take note, I think I eat more than a cup of rice every meal. Although not much of sweets and snacks in between. I was calmed down when my OB said I should not worry because my swelling has totally disappeared. Two weeks ago, I had slight edema.

My OB said the skin in my tummy is so thin. She could feel na puro babies ang laman and no fats. My tummy is growing bigger and bigger every visit. And it's dropping already. We were happy we passed 34 weeks already. OB wanted to wait till I go into labor. Otherwise, we can set a delivery date anytime from Nov 5. We still have to think of a good date. I texted my mom if she can suggest a good date. Aba, I was laughing my heart out, when she replied 'Piliin mo birthday ni Vilma. Nov 2 or 3 ata'. Hahahaha! I texted back 'Ma, hindi naman ako vilmanian!' Hihihi.

As mentioned earlier, it's Che and I's anniversary today. So after check-up, we had dinner at Luk Foo together with my mom-in-law. I indulge myself with a slice of banofee pie from Red Ribbon at home. I actually had the cake delivered this morning since I have no way of buying anything for Che as our anniversary gift.

So here's to waiting till the Big day.

Our government can actually be efficient

If you ask any Filipino, there will always be a gripe against our government, whether on corruption or government's inefficiency in providing services. Today, I have a praise to give to our government. I requested for an NSO certified Marriage Certificate online thru ecensus.gov.ph. It was actually a recommendation by a friend. The request for a copy costs Php 300 only so I thought of giving it a try instead of the hassle of actually going to an NSO branch. I placed my request online last Oct 4 but managed to pay thru the bank only on Oct 16. Today, exactly a week after we paid, I got the certificate delivered by Fedex. Not bad.

I could say that I now have hope that our government could actually be efficient in the services that they offer to us, Filipinos.

A decade of love and happiness

Today, October 23, marks our 10 year anniversary as bf/gf.

I can't imagine that we already spent barely one-third of our life together as a couple.

I am sharing here our love story. I don't normally put everything in detail especially those not really close to both of us. It is not a fairy tale romance after all. But I am glad of how things went. Che is, in fact, the best gift God has given me.

Our Love Story

Che and I are actually blockmates in DLSU. We both took up Business Management and have been friends since our first year. We were actually 'just' friends. He was with another girl while I had a crush on someone. I had my guy bestfriend, also our blockmate, but Che and I remained close as well. His life took a turn on our first year college when he got her girlfriend pregnant. I was one of his confidant then. Their relationship was on the rocks during the pregnancy and she left right after giving birth. The child remained with him but the situation calls for him to be treated as his 'kuya' instead as a daddy. We became really close with frequent and long talk on the phone. We had a bet that led to a movie date. I was shocked on our first date when he held and kissed my hand. I swear to our common friends that I will not date him again. But I don't know what made me go out with him again. Hehe. It came to a point that we were too close and the situation got more complicated as her ex-girlfriend (mom of his son) kept bugging me. One night, I could not tolerate it anymore. I thought Che and I need to end the close friendship we had to keep my peace. Che fought for it and finally said he love me.

Few days after, on October 23, 1997, during one of our class break, one of our blockmates was teasing me that I already have a boyfriend. I was teased with my bestfriend and then a blockmate hinted it could be Che. Our barkada was asked by our other blockmates if we were really an item. It was quite funny. That same day, after school, I asked him something. I approached him because he was kinda aloof as he normally offer to bring me home (or drop me off the nearest place near home) after school. He finally asked me to ride with him and I agreed. It was that night that we reminisced the fun we had during our 'dates'. And suddenly, I thought I should give the relationship a try. That night, I also got my first kiss (a smack on the lips) while inside the car and caught in traffic before approaching Nagtahan Bridge. Hehe.

It's always fun reminiscing our college days. Che always teases me how I look like when we were in college - me wearing a Kamiseta printed shirt tucked in a pair of jeans, my hair pony-tailed, I carry with me my red or blue lacoste bag and a Hair Doctor comb at the rear pocket of my jeans. Che then had a long hair. I would love to post some pictures here but there's no digital camera that time yet. The 'in' thing then was a pager in which we both exchange our 'corny' messages. Hehehe.

Che used different cars since high school but if you ask him, what he love most is his 2-door Charade. It was the car that he used during the first few years of us being together and that includes the day that we became an item. He would call it his 'love car'.

Due to a lot of differences, we broke up in Feb 2000 but got back together sometime June/July 2001 just few weeks before I was assigned in Subic for work. Since then, we managed a long distance relationship. For a year when I worked in Subic, we will meet up only on weekends. When I moved to Hong Kong, we will meet up every 3 months. And for a year and a half in Davao, we would meet usually once a month. Surprisingly, despite the difficulties in a long distance relationship, we managed to stay together.

Ten years after, I could say our love grew even stronger. The humor helped sustain the relationship.

Sugarbox

Have just replied to a post in n@w regarding a recommendation for a cake supplier for a n@wie's mom's 60th birthday. Our cake supplier during our wedding, Sugarbox, far exceeded my expectations and so I recommend her to any who will need a cake for whatever occassion.

Here's a shot of our cake. For me, it was indeed perfect. It was exactly the cake I imagined and it matches perfectly the motif and of course my bouquet (with the cymbidium flowers).

I checked out her site once more (after barely 2 years) and tickled to saw our wedding cake in the site. Here's the link…

I will forever be grateful that I got Emily Uy to do our wedding cake...

Some Updates

Here are some updates for me (although no picture yet - sigh)

• I think I have already been accustomed to battling boredom at home. I watch TV now, surf the net, call whoever and whatever I think of (stores for stock availability/ churches for baptism schedule and venues etc)
• It's during my last weeks of pregnancy that I am asking Che to buy me pasalubong (something to look forward to at the end of the day). I am fortunate he gladly oblige.
• I already had my steroid injection about 2 weekends ago. I was rushed to the ER due to observation of reduced fetal movements. False alarm lang ako. Nagpapansin sina Sean and Sophia and began kicking vigorously on the way to the hospital. Or was it an excuse for me to see the outside world? ehehehe.
• I am getting nosebleeds frequently. One last weekend where I was rushed to the ER again to check my platelet count, bleed time and clot time. All results were normal. Init lang siguro.
• I had visitors last Friday! Our friends dropped by to have dinner. Boom, who had a vacation from the US gave us the pasalubongs. Our twins got a red and blue onesies from Carters! Also got the Avent pacifiers and Gap dream cologne that I asked her to buy. Also chat with fellow preggy, Leah, who everybody was teasing to also carry twins with how big she carries her pregnancy. We catched up with Maurice, Kaori and their 2yr old son Kenji and their parenting stories.
• I am feeling kinda weird lately both emotionally and especially physically. Am I anticipating labor soon? We'll see..

That's all for me folks. Till next time...

Top 10 things to look forward to

Whew! I am glad I survived barely 2 weeks of boredom. At least I know I could carry on for few more weeks - especially now that I have resumed broadband access in my laptop! That could be both good and bad. Good because I will have something to do but Bad because that means work will follow me since I am now able to connect to our office server.

Anyways, aside from our twins, there are 10 reasons/things to look forward to after giving birth. I am glad we are few weeks more to go before the 'big day'. Here it goes:

1. A good full body massage

- Oh I miss this so badly.

2. Bring the romance back

- Not that it was entirely lost. Che has been a very sweet and caring husband but you know, there are things we would like to go back to normal - the dates, and you-know-what. ;)

- Have already made reservations for an overnight Cuddle-Up package at Nurture Spa in Tagaytay on Dec15-16. I so look forward to that (even it means leaving the twins behind for 2 days). This includes a couple's body massage so reason #1 should be covered as well.

3. A trip to Salon de Manila

- My hair definitely needs some tender loving care. It needs a new cut and color.

4. A visit to a skin care clinic

- Give me that well deserved facial! Oh, and probably a consultation on how to bring back my tummy into a presentable look. Damn those stretchmarks!

5. Losing that weight

- It's every pregnant woman's wish, right?

6. Do some shopping

- I missed this! Or will I change to a 'conservative i.e. kuripot mama' when the twins are born? ;) Irregardless, I'd like to shop either for myself, my husband or most likely for the twins!

7. House Hunt

- Such a serious topic, let's see how it goes.

8. Party Planning

- Of course, for the baptismal of the twins! Can you believe I've done some 'research' already few weeks back?

9. A family out-of-town trip

- Che and I have planned on bringing both families in Boracay summer of next year! We hope this will push thru!

10. Christmas!!!

- Need i say more?

How about you? What are the top things you look forward to. Go tag yourself.